Saturday, July 16, 2011

Because i live for Tuesdays

i tried summarising my NP feelings into an email length for my juniors doing the newsletter this year, it was so weird, it was so long, i think i love NP too much mann.... hehs.

i tried reading Saman's blog just now before reporting here, but i just cant, dont feel like it i guess, dont have the feeling to read other's emotions now, i have too many of my own..

now, i simply live for Tuesdays. or at least from now till National Day, which is half a month awayy.... sighs. why? because Victor sir comes down to help us, and he's planning to change our school NDP SO SO much this year, i bet its gonna be so friggin cool this year if everything goes well! sighs, but it aint gonna last long anyways is it? the juniors still think i like Victor Sir, and hence keep asking him to come down for help. can't they understand i just don't wish they be empty NCO like me? it's different. i feel bad asking Sir to come down and help us when they arn't even appreciative.

yesterday was swearing in, i thought it was......okay-ish, but the games were abitt... boring, should have had more.. movements, instead of just a circle, or a line or stuff like thatt.... plus some of the sec2s kept talking to each other instead of the group and bonding the group. sighs, i dunno, i dont have an authority to comment do i? tskk....

i'm in a mix of emotions now, lazy, sad, emo-ish, guilty, and a whole lot more..... not to mention how unprepared for the chem test on monday i am.. i cant help but not understand a word in chem class, its just too confusing. gahh, help please? someone! D:

Sunday, July 10, 2011

a lil' something from Saman's

1. Who is/are your best guy friend(s)?
o.O IDK...

2. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
Only if it's him.. :D

3. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
i'm thinking my current crush is harder than the first person. and i'm still talking to him.. so yeah

4. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
Church. x.x

5. Do you have a best friend?
Foolscaps

6. Do you smoke?
NOT IN MY LIFE. :D

7. Do you remember what you were like when you were a kid?
an asshole.

8. Can you vote for the next election?
NOPE :D kinda happy in a sense

9. What are you listening to?
爱相随-Emil Chau

10. When will your next kiss be?
I dont know. o.O

11. Who do you want to see right now?
mostly? 1, God. 2, him.

12. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Never had sleepovers. ._.

13. When did your last hug take place?
Vinitha; last week?

14. Do you date smart people?
"Question is: Would smart people date ME?!"
-quote Saman;Nadia

15. Where were you at 2:02 pm this afternoon?
with Murni in the Jurong central area i think?

16. What does the last text in your phone say?
"Just say roughly" -Rachel OUn asking for Math answers

17. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
quitee... :)

18. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
when i was like wayy wayy younger

19. Who did you last eat with?
Family, this morning.

20. Do you text alot?
not really.

21. How old would you be in 13 months?
17 :D D: O'Level yearr..

22. When is the last time you tattooed?
when i was way younger i used to do those stick on tattoos, like... p5 or something?

23. If you like that person will you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Hide them.... currently what i'm trying madly to do noww

25. What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Nothing much actually..

26. Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
nothing to talk about, dont wanna bother him. but even if we talk, also offical business only luhs

28. Do you have a reason to smile right now?
i smile like an idiot every time i think of him, that count?

29. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first ?
- water bottle
- Watch
- Bag
But, i dont bet. tyvm :D

30. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? What was it about?
Vivek, about his cousin's wedding?

31. Who was driving the last car you were in?
Car? Kor

32. Who was the last person that called you?
My Bro

33. What are you craving right now?
talk to him actually. (if anyone reads this, they'd think i'm crazy)

35. What are you excited about?
tomorrow, i'd see a certain friend of mine. :D but ot looking forward to school. tyvm

36. Ever kissed your number 1 on facebook?
Who's my number1 on facebook o.O and nope, all i've kissed is Faith

37. When was the last time you cried? And why?
if i told you, i'd have to kill you. for real

38. Ever kissed someone who's name starts with an A?
Nahh.

39. Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
Kinda

40. Last person you hugged?
Vinitha; i'm guessing

41. What were you doing at 2:00 am last night?
Sleeping?

42. Have you cried today?
Nopes :D

43. What bed did you sleep in last night?
My ONLY bed.

44. Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
Nope. forgive and forget :D or rather just forget luhs

45. Ever talked to someone that was high?
humm.... no clue.

46. Does it snow where you live?
Nope.

47. When is the next time you will see your grandma?
it's really rare i ever see themm

48. Have you kissed or hugged someone today ?
Kissed Faith this morning

49. Will you be married in the next two years ?
lol. nopers!

50. Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldn't have?
yup. still do. stupid ehs?

51. Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged?
Single but taken

52. How have you felt today?
quite happy

53. Do you like your name?
perfectly fine. used to hate the guys in school for giving disgusting "nick" names, but i'm over those times

54. Are you happy at the moment?
kinda

55. What were you doing at 10:00pm last night ?
watching tv :D

56. Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents)?
Bro. to anf from church today :) thanks kor!

57. Ever kissed someone in a closet?
WHAT?! NO!

58. Do you live alone?
nopes, family.

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
used to, but not quite anymore..?

60. Are you crazy?
yes, i believe so. :D

61. Who was the last person to call you babe?
i dont know o.o

62. How has this past week been for you?
long and straneous - how do you spell this? i keep forgetting! D:

63. Last thing you drank ?
water..

64. Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason?
yes. God's Will.

65. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
in a relationship, no

66. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be?
i dont believe in reincarnation. so.... no clue

67. What do you normally order when you're at McDonald's?
depends on my mood actually.

71. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
if i chose him, it'd be awkward. Vinitha i guess.

74. If you could only use a form of transportation, what would it be?
Bicycle. :D i like to feel the breeze

75. Whats your favorite kind of cake?
Cheese cake i believe

76. Look 20 degrees to your left, what do you see?
Kor's bedd

77. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Nope, i untie when i put them on though

78. Do you buy your own groceries?
no, but i tag along on grocery shopping trips though

79. What's your favorite fruit?
Grapes i think..

80. Do you like running long distances?
NOT AT ALL.

81. What color are your bedsheets?
mostly, blue + white

82. What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
Dennis.(There-niece) it SHOULD be pronounced Denise(The-Niece)

83. Lastly, whats your favorite color?
Green/White. :D

it's been long. but not quite actually.

so i'm super psyched!
i met him... last monday, and i'm meeting him again tomorrow. depso much? haha, can't be helped, i think i've fallen into the stage of "blinded crush". tsk. so irritating. Rachel keeps turning around to face me, then show the "twist" sign, to represent him. sheesh, then i will like automatically smile and my thoughts will just run wild. LIKE MAD. tsk

and i dont know why, i can keep other's secrets fairly well with myself, but i cant keep my own. its so damm obvious. i'm pretty sure he knows. so he is just faking to not know..

and friday, i realised something. i kinda have a feeling, either i'm thinking too much(as per usual) or God is really doing something i don't know why either.

so two fridays, i got screwed with my unit, and decided not to return unless help is seriously needed. then Victor said i should not give up so easily, and encouraged me to go back. but i know myself well, and i seriously think i shouldn't. then he taught me a whole bunch of campcraft stuff, which i cannot forget, or he'd murder me.. but if i cant go back, then how to teach? means must go le lorr.. then last friday, one of the trainee teachers came down to look around and commented alot. he made me realise and learn a lot, but back to the point. if i cant go back, how to teach? means must go back? but if i go back, the sec 3s are gonna say i'm meddling with their term again. and i dont want that scene to repeat. so i'm seriously stuck in between helping; or rather "helping", and quiting. if God is really wanting to direct me to do something i dont want, then i really need to know which path to take. which i dont. hence the confusion.. tsk. a little help maybe?

i met with Vivek last sunday, for chem help/study group. and i met Murni today, for kinda a study session. feels as if i'm having my own mini cont gathering....with those i am actually close to at leastt.... tsk. murni mentioned today she wants to make a cont gathering. good luck babe, you'd need itt..... sighs, if only it'd actually happen. tsk. so irritating. can i just.... drop off the face of the planet? that way, i wont feel so...... frustrated! gah... kill me!D:

Friday, July 1, 2011

alot happened lately, but i dont wish to cover anything about my unit. now, i am emotionless to my unit. but i ddi enjoy the time i spent with him the other day. but no, i'm not going to type that since it was last tuesday, and i dont feel like..

a little FB note thing again. :D


[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
-some la
[ ] You can vote in an election
[X] You can cook for yourself .
-maggie? :D
[ ] You think politics are interesting
-i think politics are funny :D
TOTAL SO FAR: 2
[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[X] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
-ONCE. dammit
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[X] You like to take walks by yourself
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
-either Teh Peng or Milt Tea.
TOTAL SO FAR : 5
[X] You know how to do the dishes
[X] You can count to 10 in another language
[X] When you say you're going to do something you do it (most of times?)
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ]You study even when you don't have to
[X] You have hand washed a car
TOTAL SO FAR: 9
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[ ] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 11
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[X] You have been to the beach
[X] You use the internet every day
-nearly
[X] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
[X] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.
TOTAL: 15

TAG THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE FOR THE AGE U ARE

Saturday, June 25, 2011

GIVE UP.

should i give up? i think i should. and Shannon made me realise something.
PRAY.ABOUT.IT.

Shannon Ng says
you pray about it?

denise Xu says
uhmm.. last night lehh, but i think i wouldn't cause i believe its impossible anyway

Shannon Ng says
you know how we're told like the holy spirit will guide you
like the voice that tells you stuff?
i think when we hear things like its impossible, its not God telling you
cause we know God can do anything
but listen to the very still voice that tells you reason to why or why not
thing with God is that, i feel, we get into all the bgrs, we hurt at the end when the person isnt right for us
God hurts too
so why not listen to all the stuff God has to say before deciding that you wanna tell
cause its hard to feel so, but make yourself not act upon it, i know.
but timing's very crucial


i should really rethink. i'm now a member of the world right? i have to remember God's Will.
God willing, whoever i meet and end up with, will not end up in a ending like mum's.

Friday, June 24, 2011

因为我配不上你。

Rachel 让我发现了一件事。
我根本配不上他。
喜欢他好比赖蛤蟆像吃天鹅肉
为什么?
1)人人都说胖女孩没资格谈恋爱。
2) 他又高又瘦,我就刚好相反。哪有女生比男生大只的呢?
3)他只把我当成是小妹妹吧,cadet 罢了。
那我这又何苦呢? 为何要自讨苦吃?嗨~~
WHERE IS SAMAN WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO LIFT MY SPIRITS A LITTLE?! D:

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Ms Liberty (SC March In)

nobody in my family is supposed to know of this blog. hence? i'm posting like a thief, that being secretly.
anyways, felt like it, so here's a lil' FB note kinda thing :D

put your playlist on shuffle, then click "next" for every question. NO CHEATING!

1. If someone says, “shelf”, you say? Wish You My Love
I wish my shelf love. she's sentimental like that

2. How would you describe yourself? 从满幻想的少年 (Full of Imagination)
I am full of imagination. that's right.

3. What do you like in a guy/girl? Full House- I Think I Love You O_O?
I like it that i think i like the guy?

4. How do you feel today? 下一站,幸福. (Next Stop, Happiness)
i feel that my next stop is gonna be filled with happiness :D

5. What is your life’s purpose? Fifteen-Swifty
my purpose in life. 15?! srsly?! O_O?!

6. What's your motto? 我难过(I'm Sad) -5566.
well, i can't say thats my motto, but that's the state i'm constantly in

7. What do your friends think of you? NPCCxMarch.
LOL. that's right. they think i'm NP crazy. not that it's not true... O.O?

8. What do you think of your parents? 拓也的秘密心願
uhm... that's an instrumental. so..... i think my parents are instrumental? THEY HINT WHAT THEY WANNA SAY BUT DON'T ACTUALLY SAY IT OUT! hah!(i managed to bullshit that out?!)

9. What do you think about very often? 幸運草( Four-Leaf Clover)
hehs, the chance of me and him is as good as finding Four Leaf Clovers >.<

10. What is 2 + 2? She Will Be Loved-Maroon 5.
i dont know man

11. What do you think of your best friend? 挑撥(Instigation?)
I think my best friend is trying to instigate something..... i don't have a bestie though

12. What do you think of the person you like? You Belong With Me-Swifty
LOL. yeah right. that answer is epic though

13. What is your life story? 最美麗的謊言(The Nicest Lie)
all i can say is.....LOL! >.< ain't that right captain obvious!

14. What do you want to be when you grow up? 战斗
I've no clue how to translate that man..

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like? Don't Stop Believing.
OMG. NOOOO!!!!

16. What will you dance to at your wedding? Love Story - Swifty.
LOL, that's appropriate. :D

17. What will they play at your funeral? Hey Stephen - Swifty.
uhm.... i don't even think Stephen is gonna be at my funeral though, but hey, why not? :D

18. What is your biggest fear? 一切為了愛 (Everything For Love)
LOL.

19. What is your biggest secret? 突然想愛你( Suddenly Want To Love You)
hehs, my crush?

20. What will you post this as? Ms Liberty(SC March In)
NOw everyone's really gonna think i'm NP mad. this was march in tune for NPAP'2011. hehs.