Because i live for Tuesdays

i tried summarising my NP feelings into an email length for my juniors doing the newsletter this year, it was so weird, it was so long, i think i love NP too much mann.... hehs.

i tried reading Saman's blog just now before reporting here, but i just cant, dont feel like it i guess, dont have the feeling to read other's emotions now, i have too many of my own..

now, i simply live for Tuesdays. or at least from now till National Day, which is half a month awayy.... sighs. why? because Victor sir comes down to help us, and he's planning to change our school NDP SO SO much this year, i bet its gonna be so friggin cool this year if everything goes well! sighs, but it aint gonna last long anyways is it? the juniors still think i like Victor Sir, and hence keep asking him to come down for help. can't they understand i just don't wish they be empty NCO like me? it's different. i feel bad asking Sir to come down and help us when they arn't even appreciative.

yesterday was swearing in, i thought it was......okay-ish, but the games were abitt... boring, should have had more.. movements, instead of just a circle, or a line or stuff like thatt.... plus some of the sec2s kept talking to each other instead of the group and bonding the group. sighs, i dunno, i dont have an authority to comment do i? tskk....

i'm in a mix of emotions now, lazy, sad, emo-ish, guilty, and a whole lot more..... not to mention how unprepared for the chem test on monday i am.. i cant help but not understand a word in chem class, its just too confusing. gahh, help please? someone! D:

a lil' something from Saman's

1. Who is/are your best guy friend(s)?
o.O IDK...

2. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
Only if it's him.. :D

3. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
i'm thinking my current crush is harder than the first person. and i'm still talking to him.. so yeah

4. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
Church. x.x

5. Do you have a best friend?
Foolscaps

6. Do you smoke?
NOT IN MY LIFE. :D

7. Do you remember what you were like when you were a kid?
an asshole.

8. Can you vote for the next election?
NOPE :D kinda happy in a sense

9. What are you listening to?
爱相随-Emil Chau

10. When will your next kiss be?
I dont know. o.O

11. Who do you want to see right now?
mostly? 1, God. 2, him.

12. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Never had sleepovers. ._.

13. When did your last hug take place?
Vinitha; last week?

14. Do you date smart people?
"Question is: Would smart people date ME?!"
-quote Saman;Nadia

15. Where were you at 2:02 pm this afternoon?
with Murni in the Jurong central area i think?

16. What does the last text in your phone say?
"Just say roughly" -Rachel OUn asking for Math answers

17. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
quitee... :)

18. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
when i was like wayy wayy younger

19. Who did you last eat with?
Family, this morning.

20. Do you text alot?
not really.

21. How old would you be in 13 months?
17 :D D: O'Level yearr..

22. When is the last time you tattooed?
when i was way younger i used to do those stick on tattoos, like... p5 or something?

23. If you like that person will you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Hide them.... currently what i'm trying madly to do noww

25. What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Nothing much actually..

26. Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
nothing to talk about, dont wanna bother him. but even if we talk, also offical business only luhs

28. Do you have a reason to smile right now?
i smile like an idiot every time i think of him, that count?

29. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first ?
- water bottle
- Watch
- Bag
But, i dont bet. tyvm :D

30. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? What was it about?
Vivek, about his cousin's wedding?

31. Who was driving the last car you were in?
Car? Kor

32. Who was the last person that called you?
My Bro

33. What are you craving right now?
talk to him actually. (if anyone reads this, they'd think i'm crazy)

35. What are you excited about?
tomorrow, i'd see a certain friend of mine. :D but ot looking forward to school. tyvm

36. Ever kissed your number 1 on facebook?
Who's my number1 on facebook o.O and nope, all i've kissed is Faith

37. When was the last time you cried? And why?
if i told you, i'd have to kill you. for real

38. Ever kissed someone who's name starts with an A?
Nahh.

39. Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
Kinda

40. Last person you hugged?
Vinitha; i'm guessing

41. What were you doing at 2:00 am last night?
Sleeping?

42. Have you cried today?
Nopes :D

43. What bed did you sleep in last night?
My ONLY bed.

44. Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
Nope. forgive and forget :D or rather just forget luhs

45. Ever talked to someone that was high?
humm.... no clue.

46. Does it snow where you live?
Nope.

47. When is the next time you will see your grandma?
it's really rare i ever see themm

48. Have you kissed or hugged someone today ?
Kissed Faith this morning

49. Will you be married in the next two years ?
lol. nopers!

50. Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldn't have?
yup. still do. stupid ehs?

51. Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged?
Single but taken

52. How have you felt today?
quite happy

53. Do you like your name?
perfectly fine. used to hate the guys in school for giving disgusting "nick" names, but i'm over those times

54. Are you happy at the moment?
kinda

55. What were you doing at 10:00pm last night ?
watching tv :D

56. Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents)?
Bro. to anf from church today :) thanks kor!

57. Ever kissed someone in a closet?
WHAT?! NO!

58. Do you live alone?
nopes, family.

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
used to, but not quite anymore..?

60. Are you crazy?
yes, i believe so. :D

61. Who was the last person to call you babe?
i dont know o.o

62. How has this past week been for you?
long and straneous - how do you spell this? i keep forgetting! D:

63. Last thing you drank ?
water..

64. Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason?
yes. God's Will.

65. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
in a relationship, no

66. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be?
i dont believe in reincarnation. so.... no clue

67. What do you normally order when you're at McDonald's?
depends on my mood actually.

71. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
if i chose him, it'd be awkward. Vinitha i guess.

74. If you could only use a form of transportation, what would it be?
Bicycle. :D i like to feel the breeze

75. Whats your favorite kind of cake?
Cheese cake i believe

76. Look 20 degrees to your left, what do you see?
Kor's bedd

77. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Nope, i untie when i put them on though

78. Do you buy your own groceries?
no, but i tag along on grocery shopping trips though

79. What's your favorite fruit?
Grapes i think..

80. Do you like running long distances?
NOT AT ALL.

81. What color are your bedsheets?
mostly, blue + white

82. What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
Dennis.(There-niece) it SHOULD be pronounced Denise(The-Niece)

83. Lastly, whats your favorite color?
Green/White. :D

it's been long. but not quite actually.

so i'm super psyched!
i met him... last monday, and i'm meeting him again tomorrow. depso much? haha, can't be helped, i think i've fallen into the stage of "blinded crush". tsk. so irritating. Rachel keeps turning around to face me, then show the "twist" sign, to represent him. sheesh, then i will like automatically smile and my thoughts will just run wild. LIKE MAD. tsk

and i dont know why, i can keep other's secrets fairly well with myself, but i cant keep my own. its so damm obvious. i'm pretty sure he knows. so he is just faking to not know..

and friday, i realised something. i kinda have a feeling, either i'm thinking too much(as per usual) or God is really doing something i don't know why either.

so two fridays, i got screwed with my unit, and decided not to return unless help is seriously needed. then Victor said i should not give up so easily, and encouraged me to go back. but i know myself well, and i seriously think i shouldn't. then he taught me a whole bunch of campcraft stuff, which i cannot forget, or he'd murder me.. but if i cant go back, then how to teach? means must go le lorr.. then last friday, one of the trainee teachers came down to look around and commented alot. he made me realise and learn a lot, but back to the point. if i cant go back, how to teach? means must go back? but if i go back, the sec 3s are gonna say i'm meddling with their term again. and i dont want that scene to repeat. so i'm seriously stuck in between helping; or rather "helping", and quiting. if God is really wanting to direct me to do something i dont want, then i really need to know which path to take. which i dont. hence the confusion.. tsk. a little help maybe?

i met with Vivek last sunday, for chem help/study group. and i met Murni today, for kinda a study session. feels as if i'm having my own mini cont gathering....with those i am actually close to at leastt.... tsk. murni mentioned today she wants to make a cont gathering. good luck babe, you'd need itt..... sighs, if only it'd actually happen. tsk. so irritating. can i just.... drop off the face of the planet? that way, i wont feel so...... frustrated! gah... kill me!D:

alot happened lately, but i dont wish to cover anything about my unit. now, i am emotionless to my unit. but i ddi enjoy the time i spent with him the other day. but no, i'm not going to type that since it was last tuesday, and i dont feel like..

a little FB note thing again. :D


[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
-some la
[ ] You can vote in an election
[X] You can cook for yourself .
-maggie? :D
[ ] You think politics are interesting
-i think politics are funny :D
TOTAL SO FAR: 2
[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[X] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
-ONCE. dammit
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[X] You like to take walks by yourself
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
-either Teh Peng or Milt Tea.
TOTAL SO FAR : 5
[X] You know how to do the dishes
[X] You can count to 10 in another language
[X] When you say you're going to do something you do it (most of times?)
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ]You study even when you don't have to
[X] You have hand washed a car
TOTAL SO FAR: 9
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[ ] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 11
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[X] You have been to the beach
[X] You use the internet every day
-nearly
[X] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
[X] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.
TOTAL: 15

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